Why ask Why?

Sometimes as a christian I think that I cant ask God why when a trial comes along. I have to keep it all together and "be" strong. Because if I am weak, or question... then I am not trusting and depending on Him. To some extent there is truth in that, however, I find in the scriptures many of Gods faithful servants have asked God why? In my study of Job this morning I was struck by how many times Job asks God why. For some reason I always thought job never questioned God during his trials, but that isn't the case. Job was a distressed man, enduring what he felt like he was going through was worse then death. Now I also have to point out there were moments where Job was out of line, and in the end he is rebuked by God for this. But I cant help but notice and read the heart wrenching moments where Job exposes his heart for what it is, and take notice that it is some times those moments of prayerful, tearful honest questions in prayer that God can expose and transform my heart the most. In Job 7, Job shares some pretty dark questions v20, Have I sinned? What have I done to you, O watcher of men, Why have you set me as your target.... As I read these words I thought,  how many times have I said this in my heart, "why me God" But as I continue to read in Ch 9 Job goes back to what he knows about God v2 "In truth I know that this is so"........This is where our questioning and our whys should lead us to remember what we know to be true about God. That even though I am going through this trial or hardship I know that He is _________faithful, true, loving, creator, he can do all things, and is accomplishing his will for his glory. As we cry out and bare our soul to him he reminds us that he is stronger, that he has all power, that he has brought us through this to refine us. We can all fill in the blank. So it is not that we can not fall to our knees and cry out to the Lord and ask him why, I think there are moments where we need to. But we need to go to his word in these moments and ask ourselves "What is true about God inspite of what I am going through right now. And in those moments is when our questions turn to trust, our disbelief turns to faith, and our doubts turn to confidence. In those moments our hearts are transformed and our questions are answered.  

Our questioning will many times start with why God, but will end with how can I TRUST you no matter what.  A while back I wrote a song called Take this life. Talking about whatever the trial or hard time if it brings me closer to God and he is glorified then whether in death or life, no matter how many times that he would take my life and use it for His glory. 

Nothing in this world can satisfy

You are my portion my supply

Through the joy and through the pain

Lord take me as you will, Again and Again

Take this life take all I am use it for glory 

Death to Death and Life to Life 

From the Bottom of my heart I will cry

In the darkest of the night

Lord you are my delight 

Through the wind and through the rain 

Lord take my hand and lead me out again

Take this life, Take all I am use it for your glory

Death to Death, and Life to Life, from the bottom of my heart I will cry

So let you light shine through, Jesus

Let you light shine through, Jesus. 

As David put it in Psalm 139:23-24 

Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grevious way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!